Call out to me when trouble comes. I will save you. And you will honor me.

Psalm 50:15

“Lord, why?” I asked as I walked in my garden. “Why do I have breast cancer and heart disease after 5 years of infertility? Are you unhappy with me? Didn’t I learn the lessons I was supposed to during my infertility journey? Did I not give you as much thanks and praise as I should have? Did I not love others enough? Did I not talk to you enough? Why, God. Why?”

Consider the butterfly,” He said.

I had no idea how a butterfly might be an answer. But I chose to obey God and “considered the butterfly.”

I thought about how people all over the world marvel at the metamorphosis, or transformation, of a caterpillar to a chrysalis to a butterfly. God could have simply made a butterfly. But, instead, He gave us a process to watch whereby we can see His majesty. God was calling me to see His handiwork in my life.

Our faces are not covered with a veil. We all display the Lord’s glory. We are being changed to become more like Him so that we have more and more glory. And the glory comes from the Lord, who is the Holy Spirit.

2 Corinthians 3:18

And, He was telling me that His plans for me included transforming me into something beautiful–into His child.

How great is the love the Father has given us so freely! Now we can be called children of God. And that’s what we really are!

1 John 3:1

I had longed for children. And He granted my heart’s desire. But God too wants children. He longs for me to be His child. And just like I want the best for my children, He wants the best for me.

The Spirit Himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children.  Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in His sufferings in order that we may also share in His glory. I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.

Romans 8:16-18 (NIV)

The word, “consider,” means to compute, calculate, or weigh. Here, I interpret the Scriptures to say that the weight of my chrysalis is insignificant and temporary compared to my eternal value as a transformed butterfly.

I was given a fifty percent chance of surviving five years from my breast cancer. I was in my 30s when I began my recommended treatments: a single mastectomy, heart surgery for a 90% blocked main artery, port surgery, chemotherapy, and radiation. These non-stop therapies took a year to complete. I then began taking a medicine to stop my hormones from feeding potential cancer cells that could show up anywhere in my body.

I had spiritual cancer too. For which, God gave me spiritual treatments.

Today, I am a survivor of infertility, cancer, and heart disease. I am celebrating life–not just the fact that I am alive–but also the fact that God, by His grace, transformed my life. Just like a butterfly.

What is a beautiful butterfly to me?

A beautiful butterfly is one who, despite troubles in life, rests in the knowledge that God is the Creator who will protect and transform His creation exactly as He planned.

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