by admin on May 1, 2014

Hi to My Butterfly Testimony family and friends!

Today is a very special day for me. It’s my “survivor anniversary”. On May 1st, seven years ago, I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I was given a 50% chance of surviving five years, if I did nothing.

I fought the battle! And I am still fighting. However, I have a confession: I wanted God to heal me instantly. He didn’t. God revealed to me that there is a process to healing—a process to change. Metamorphosis.

Today’s devotion is a gift to you in celebration of life. We are celebrating not only my life, but THE ULTIMATE GIFT of everlasting life. Enjoy your gift!


Gift box with color butterfliesWAITING FOR A GIFT
Written by Suzanne Makshanoff

LifeCycle Devotions
© Suzanne Makshanoff [2014]*.


And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. – Romans 8:38

“In ALL things? Really, God?” Well, that is what scripture says, so it is truth. The problem that we have with this statement is that we can’t see the future, only God can.

As I considered the butterfly, I noticed that metamorphosis involves a process of change. God doesn’t just instantly make a butterfly. We live in a time when we are so used to getting things instantly. Fast food. Fast info. Fast service. And, well, when things don’t happen fast—or rather, when we think they should happen—it rocks our world. During my infertility, the waiting for a baby was painful. During my cancer, waiting for the results of test after test was torture. I’m not a personal fan of waiting!

But, God sees time differently than we do. And He sees the future that is hidden from our eyes. The following Scripture says that beauty comes in God’s timing.

I’ve seen the heavy load God has put on men. He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also given men a sense of what He’s been doing down through the ages. But they can’t completely figure out what He’s done from the beginning to the end (Ecclesiastes 3:10-11).

That is so true! When we are in the middle of our struggles, we cannot see the end. In a similar way, a caterpillar doesn’t know why it is suffering—why it is bound by its chrysalis.

The caterpillar might be screaming, “Lord, get me out of here!”

But God is saying, “No, stay in the chrysalis. I have good plans for you.”

“But it’s dark and scary! I want out! How could this be good?”

And God says, “Wait, my darling, I am making you into a creature through which the whole world will see my majesty.”

The Psalmist writes about patiently waiting for God:

Wait for the Lord; be strong and let your heart take courage; yes, wait for the Lord (Psalm 27:14).

Commit your life to the Lord. Here is what He will do if you trust in Him. He will make your godly ways shine like the dawn. He will make your honest life shine like the sun at noon. Be still. Be patient. Wait for the Lord to act (Psalm 37:4-7).

Sometimes God doesn’t immediately restore us. We think, “I am Your child, Lord, why aren’t You doing something?” When Lazarus died, the people cried out, “Why Lord did You not come? You could have healed him.” God waited until the situation was so final that He showed an even greater miracle by Lazarus’ resurrection. God wants not just to restore us, but also to resurrect our lives.

Don’t let waiting become wanton wanting. Instead, wait expectantly. Whatever your current circumstance, take the time to consider what God might be doing in your life for your good. Imagine what type of sculpture He is molding, tapestry He is weaving, masterpiece He is painting, or species of butterfly His is creating. Keep in God’s love while you wait, and you will indeed shine when it is the proper time for you to emerge from your chrysalis!

Dear Lord, thank You for reminding me that you are in control in ALL circumstances. Help me to wait on You, Lord, trusting that you love me and know what is best for me. Help me to see the good in life that You have for me. Help me to wait expectantly for Your wonderful plans to be revealed. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.

To Consider:

Read the following poem “Wait” by Russell Kelfer**:

Desperately, helplessly, longingly, I cried;
Quietly, patiently, lovingly, God replied.
I pled and I wept for a clue to my fate . . .
And the Master so gently said, “Wait.”
“Wait? you say wait?” my indignant reply.
“Lord, I need answers, I need to know why!
Is your hand shortened? Or have you not heard?
By faith I have asked, and I’m claiming your Word.
“My future and all to which I relate
Hangs in the balance, and you tell me to wait?
I’m needing a ‘yes’, a go-ahead sign,
Or even a ‘no’ to which I can resign.
“You promised, dear Lord, that if we believe,
We need but to ask, and we shall receive.
And Lord I’ve been asking, and this is my cry:
I’m weary of asking! I need a reply.”
Then quietly, softly, I learned of my fate,
As my Master replied again, “Wait.”
So I slumped in my chair, defeated and taut,
And grumbled to God, “So, I’m waiting for what?”
He seemed then to kneel, and His eyes met with mine . . .
and He tenderly said, “I could give you a sign.
I could shake the heavens and darken the sun.
I could raise the dead and cause mountains to run.
“I could give all you seek and pleased you would be.
You’d have what you want, but you wouldn’t know Me.
You’d not know the depth of my love for each saint.
You’d not know the power that I give to the faint.
“You’d not learn to see through clouds of despair;
You’d not learn to trust just by knowing I’m there.
You’d not know the joy of resting in Me
When darkness and silence are all you can see.
“You’d never experience the fullness of love
When the peace of My spirit descends like a dove.
You would know that I give, and I save, for a start,
But you’d not know the depth of the beat of My heart.
“The glow of my comfort late into the night,
The faith that I give when you walk without sight.
The depth that’s beyond getting just what you ask
From an infinite God who makes what you have last.
“You’d never know, should your pain quickly flee,
What it means that My grace is sufficient for thee.
Yes, your dearest dreams overnight would come true,
But, oh, the loss, if you missed what I’m doing in you.
“So, be silent, my child, and in time you will see
That the greatest of gifts is to truly know me.
And though oft My answers seem terribly late,
My most precious answer of all is still . . . Wait.”

Think about something for which you are waiting. Reflect on the ways that God has grown your relationship with Him during that time.

Can you think of any good “gifts” that have come out of your waiting?

Transforming Verses:

Read and reflect on Jude 1:17-21:

But, dear friends, remember what the apostles of our Lord Jesus Christ foretold. They said to you, “In the last times there will be scoffers who will follow their own ungodly desires.” These are the people who divide you, who follow mere natural instincts and do not have the Spirit. But you, dear friends, by building yourselves up in your most holy faith and praying in the Holy Spirit, keep yourselves in God’s love as you wait for the mercy of our Lord Jesus Christ to bring you to eternal life.

* © Suzanne Makshanoff [2014]. Unauthorized use and/or duplication of this material without express and written permission from this blog’s author and/or owner is strictly prohibited. Excerpts and links may be used, provided that full and clear credit is given to Suzanne Makshanoff and A Butterfly’s Testimony with appropriate and specific direction to the original content.
** ©Russell Kelfer, used by permission in print events (


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{ 1 comment }

Patricia Efseaff May 1, 2014 at 8:29 pm

Love you Suzanne, my recent illness and surgery is exactly what you have written about, the Lord made me wait for the doctors to find my problems at the last moment before any great harm was done and was repaired. Praise the Lord Jesus!

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